Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan!

Alhamdulillah, tomorrow semua orang start puasa. so 1st Ramadhan falls on the 17th of May 2018 bebaya with Malaysia and other countries as well. Finally! I'm still sick though, and my voice is still sarut. My batuk is getting worst. BUT I managed to do some work still today, so pagi petang I was mostly on my laptop. Malam, we had our first Terawih together as usual at home. We sempat joked about Memet.

Farid: Bah Qah, mana Memet ah? Suruh tia masuk, kan solat ni sudah

Me: Yakah? Tadi ia text ia otw pulang

Mama: Ada jua sudah keretanya diluar

hehe just the fam keeping Memet's presence alive dirumah haha. We did 23 rakaat tadi, Alhamdulillah. Ayah Imamkan as usual. Everyone was home too, plus ada Babu and Bapa. 

I've been wearing the same tolkong since 2013 for terawih! 

Mama, Babu, Ka nen and me 

Alhamdulillah, first Terawih done and dusted ;)

After Terawih, around 10, Syahreen, Nabs and Nain picked me up to meet Hao and Habib di Madang. Kami ada briefing for Roadlink. The rest pun ada sana, Jim, Dani, Belle and Bazz. I sampai home around 12 and had my sahur early. I had to makan ubat batuk cause my throat sakitt macam apa. hehe done reporting for the day, Goodnight! I love you Met :)

Day Two

I'M OFFICIALLY SICK :(

I woke up realizing that I lost my voice. And that my throat hurts. So my family teased me saying "banar banar jua menangis sampai damam ani" lol. Nahhhh, manadaku nangis! manada~ Anyways, I'm actually fasting today. My mom reminded me that I have one day of qadha left, nasib kena ingati! cause today could be the last day before Ramadhan. I was mostly on bed-rest but I did manage to do some work on some documents and also editing some letters. I finally got up and left home for sungkai to go to GeoEats in Jerudong pasal si Jirah craving. I jalan at 5.20 but ended up sampai around 6.15 cematu. BATAH KAN. PASAL:

I took this picture sebelum lintas empire, sebenarnya I thought roadblock at first. Sekali rupanya ada accident. I was a bit pissy sebab batah, but sis harus redha (sesungguhnya I sedang berpuasa)

Nah cubatah, jua lagi inda panjang! This was according to waze. As you can see, sampai jerudong arah Masjid Ameerah bah jammed nya ah. sakit kepala olehnya ah, bakal saja puasa. So I changed my route and go through Jerudong Park instead of lalu jalan biasa. Alhamdulillah I managed to sampai ke GeoEats sebelum azan Maghrib!

This is GeoEats punya menu and seriously guys, their food is amazing. Yes it might be a little pricey above standard, but if you consider rasanya and how fresh ingredients yang dorang use, you'll understand and its actually worth it. Jirah had the Swedish meatballs (ia cakap macam the ones arah Ikea atu) and I had the Arabic Rice with Honey Chicken. Serious nyaman, Arabic Rice nya worth it lah. Walaupun inda habis pasal for me banyak portionnya atu. and I forgot to request no kismis pasal I donno how to eat kismis. Oh kami also order dorang punya Matcha Lava Cake (THIS IS A MUST) cause me and Jirah gila matcha hehe.

We didn't get to take pictures (andang sudah bejalan siuk, nada tepikir kan begambar atu). After makan, I stayed at Jirah's place until about 10 ish bemalas meliat series. Then I jalan pasal kesian orang kan kerja esok, happy kerja jir~ Thank u jadi gf separuh masa :p then I went to kopi menyampati suprise birthday jimoh:

Happy 25th Birthday my fellow Jablai!! Love you, jangan sedih sedih cause I feel you. hehe. lepas suprise, I balik and then bemimpi. I miss you Ak Dinnie :)

2018 Madness

Masha Allah, I just realized I haven't been making any time for this. Oh well. Its 2018 now, I made this blog when I was 21. Now I'm like 24. Where did the time go?

Anyways, Hello! I'm back for a reason. Cause um, yeah long story short, today marks the first day of jablai-ness. A term we use to label those who are in a temporary distance break with their significant other. For example; long-distance-relationship or long-haul flights etc. In my case, well. Lets just say, I won't be able to see or talk to him for about 2 months. So! This blog's function is to show what I've been doing for the 2 months I have without him.

What did I do today? I spent my morning with him and his mummy. I do have pictures but I guess they're limited for just me ;) After sending Memet, I had brunch with mummy then hantar mummy balik. I went home around 12 ish, to sleep cause I barely slept last night (sis tidur pukul 3 pagi, bangun 5.30 pagi) RIP MY EYES. But totally worth it so okay~

I woke up kekajutan around 7, prolly a reminder since I missed my Asar and Maghrib prayers. Terus qadha, walaupun betangisan~ I miss you already, Ak Dinnie. I hope you're doing just fine! Then around 9 I went out to see my friends:

Thanks guys :') 

Waiting Game

Perhaps the most significant change that I realize with myself is my self-esteem.

I used to think that our identity will remain as long as we live but now I know that this is not true. As we grow up, we tend to be unsure of our identity. We change ourselves according to our environment. Such as in schools, at home, with friends. We may act differently depending on who we're with. We change our attitude, how we speak, making up a whole new identity for ourselves.

But sometimes we just never seem to realize this.

This is when the problem comes...

Some people claim that when we have more than one identity, we're said to be two-faced or even bipolar. truth is, I agree that people have 3 faces. one where they expose to the general audience, another for the close-bonded ones and lastly for their-selves. what do you think?

I used to feel like no one was like me, as if I'm one of a kind. That I'm this unique species of my own. So I often feel like if you lose me, its your loss. This sounds super arrogant but this was exactly me. However, now I never look at myself that way. I see others being way way better than me. Always. I guess you can say that this may relate to my growing up experience. We're often compared, like who's better than who. or who's prettier than who. or who's smarter than who. The judgement is often so crystal clear that it slowly lessens your self-esteem.

This is exactly how I feel.

Assalamualaikum

I have decided to start blogging again! ;)

SO HELLO! this picture was me back in High School when I was an active blogger!

I HAVE SO MUCH TO CATCH UP ON because
A LOT OF THINGS HAVE CHANGED!

(including my physical appearance, BEFORE YOU POINT IT OUT:

Yes, I've gained weight over the years because I think I was too happy over the past few years)

:P

I've been meaning to start blogging since 2013 but I had doubts. so I didn't go through with it.

but today, I just feel like I need to do this because this is what I love doing.

I like exploring things and to be able to share it to my readers = totally a bonus.

I know I've changed so much :( well everyone's growing up right?

BUT HELLO HELLO!

& Nice to meet you! ♥